Myself

I aaask myself.
Whaat's wrooong myself?
There's nooo reply,
'cause there's juuust myself,
Just me.

Imaginings..
I used ta imagine people I knew were occupying the bodies of my pets..cats usaully..cause they had that way of lookin' at ya, like they knew.. what you were up to.. and they were gonna use that information..when they got back to there HUMAN body.

There are no purple hippos in Oshawa(but don't tell my kids) maybe in other parts of the world..who knows.

Kitty was my best friend, she had thumbs and didn't mind being chased around the house, or kids, or showers. I always knew what she wanted, cause she told me.

I'm tired, I gotta be up in three hours,that really blows, and I got a child's birthday and Christmas on the horizon. I refuse ta worry, yet here I sit..

Venting

quick disclaimer..this is just a vent, just getting a few things off my chest here to avoid the inevitable Christmas meltdown.

The job situation:
I'm a temp, every morning I get up at 430 AM, trudge down to the service wait in line and cross my fingers that they'll send me out that day. If I'm lucky I'll get a repeat, go back the next day skip the line, maybe come in a lil later, and if I'm REALLY lucky the repeats will continue for a week or two(my first stint went for 3 months) If I'm unlucky I'll get there, get nothing, and go home at 830/900. The rational for this silliness is that I may get hired full time somewhere, it happens, or so I'm told. Recently I was at a place(almost 3 weeks in) and I was just starting to think they were gonna ask me to stay, they seemed to be grooming me for the job, I was doing a lot more then the other temps it seemed, when last thursday they let us go(no return) The manager started a well rehearsed spiel about "We're not busy.." but I cut him off, smiled, told him t'was a pleasure, have a good weekend, take care and walked away. psssh, please, i bin doing rejection since I was wee, quick and painless is the way ta go.
So fuck, that's a kick in the ass, now I'm back ta getting up earlier, trying ta get up front in line, ta MAYBE get somthin',FUCK me.

The place of residence situation:
Same shit, different fucken day. I don't even bother trying ta sort it anymore, every week the roomie brings home more crap..sorry stuff from the auctions. I just clear and clean as necessary nowadays.

Family situation:
I dunno..what can I say, the ex got a deal on a X-box 360, she's covered. Mom sent some stuff to Tammy's for the kids and..hold on! To Tammys?! That's, that's consorting with the enemy in my books! I got the e-mail from her to Tammy as well for some reason. Fuck me twice.

Friends situation:
Bah, friends, got one that's in a place where I just can't go and another that's sparing me the "drama" in her life, well fuck me, and here I'm thinking THAT'S when friends come in handy?

Anywho, I suspect that I'm reaping what I've sown, and despite my rant these are the peeps in my life and I love them all.

Self: kinda lost your momentum eh?
..Shut The Fuck UP! If Denis Leary can mellow with age, so can I.

Guns&Roses(yawn)

Bin debating whether to get there new cd or no. Nah..yeah I dunno, maybe, no slash, yet I'm curious bout the new members..
Very annoyed, can't find my Beth Hart mp3s, nor is there much on the seeqpod, grr..

The jolly fat guy.

Not Santa, the other one, Buddha. Was talkin' to my daughter 'bout religion yesterday. She figures I'm going to hell for being a non believer so I make it a point to enlighten her that there are religions out there(some a lot older then catholicism) that have different ideas about what happens when we die etc. Anywho, yesterday we googled Buddha and it's teachings and I was pleasantly surprised to note the apparent "common sense" approach of the beliefs. The 3 universal truths/the 4 noble truths. Deanna showed interest to, she even seemed calmed by it, which was comforting because one of my beefs with catholicism is that it uses hell and brimstone to intimidate peeps from a young age to believe, which is just not cool for by my way of thinkin'.
Gotta post and dash, work starts waaaay to early these days :(

This is why I don't shoot people..

Blue,blue, blue, one of my fave colors, coming back from work I wondered maybe if the new wave window dressing at the Y swimming pool would look cool in a picture. I imagine they added this dressing to give the swimmers some pravicy from peeps outside the buiding. So I took a couple shots. I tried to get the Y sign and the sidewalk along the building in too for good measure. So after, I'm almost home(right in front of my ex's building actually) when two cop cars pull up lights blazing, the one cop, pumped right up, orders me to put my hands on the hood and takes my camera saying they'd had a complaint that someone had observed me taking pics of children swimming. Fuck..I see where this is going and try to explain that I was just taking a pic of the building and actaully from the angle I took the pics I couldn't even see inside, 'cept maybe 20 feet up the wall of the pool becuse of the new BLUE window dressing. I could see I was wasting my breathe, this cop was convinced he'd caught a perv and got all ignorant and waved away my explainations, and when I tried to show the other cop how to review the pics on my camera I was told to keep my" fucking hands on the hood.!". Asshole. So anyways, the other cop checked out my pics(some cloud shots, a painted hydrant, 3 pics of the Y building) and said he was assured that it was innocent enough and apologized for the fuss, which I totally understand, but I thought asshole cop should have bin a lil more descreet till he had the facts, fucken pig.
I was thinking of leaving my camera at home this morning..but fuck that, can't let one bad(horrible actaully) experience scare me off takin' pics.

Talk,talk.

I'm envious sometimes of strangers conversations. Politics, sports,music, all interesting, but not so much that I'd commit details to memory, just not passionate enough about such thing I guess. Which leads to the inevitable question Just what am I passionate about? Have ta think on that a bit I think, though tisnt a very interesting question. :/

Random thoughts

Like I have any other kind :)
T.V- Grey's is shapin' up to have another kick-butt season/ Dexter's is getting kinda creepy/Private Practice..myeh./Top Gear, too cool/BBC's Sir David Attenborough, what a fasinating peep, wonder if him and Gerrald Durrell ever hung out?


Food- I've developed a fondness for stir fry and pork fried rice. Fresh vegetables are suddenly appealing..I must be getting old, reminds me I need some Vitamin C, bin negligent with the fruits lately. The Halloween treats are all gone.


Music- Listening to the "Classic" Rock station today, bin awhile sounds fresh.

Women-Oye.

Kids- Mystifying..what do they see in me anyways?

Oshawa-Bin for over 10 years now..what HAppened?! AAck.

Work- It only hurts when I stop.

The big Four OH-I'm a giant Hobbit, what the fuck?!