Oddly enough

It just occurred to me, I feel better..and thinkin' about it i realized as I emptied the last load from the dryer that it was putting my bookcase in the kids room so the kids would have a place handy for there clothes. Just a lil thing, all those neat lil bundles of clothes, all orderly and in there places..s'pose there's somthin to be said for"Babie steps" after all.
Self: it'll wear off..
:P

Body Parts

Cleaning the kids room today. finding pieces of various doll parts and it was somewhat disconcerting. Just curious but how many tentacles does a squid have? Sacrificed my bookcase ta use for a dresser of sorts. Relocated all my books and odds and ended to a corner of a closet. Maybe I'll put a TV in there room, be nice ta not trip over the game consoles wires when I want ta watch a movie..feeling very domestic today, rationalizing that I gotta get ones house in order before I can fix the rest.
Windows service pack 3 has bin givin' me all kinds of headaches today, dosent wanna play nice with firefox, very annoying.
Is there anything more painful then stepping on a piece of lego?
Would drinking beer be really that big a deal? It's only 5%..
Vodka'd be better, in moderation of course, maybe just a glass at night ta take the edge off.
Self:..
Yeah,yeah, maybe with milk, some ice, and a splash of coke? :P
Self: Forgot the Baileys..
Right,right, yum! :)

Motivate meself

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Ya mean it wasn't all in my head?

Oye, punking off one's employer should only be done in ones head..perhaps one wid wee ones should have kept his overly sensitive mouth shut and remembered the logistics of caring for one's..wee ones. Say that 10 times real fast :/
But no matter, think of something..
Self: Not realy bringing a lot to the table though are yas?
Shu-op.

Rudimentary

Always doin' this, I even warned myself to chill, no matter what happens just get through it blah blah blah. ..and what happens? I fuck it up, I opened my mouth and it all came crashing down. Burn bridges? Me? I blow up the dam. Oh and somebody always mentions; Oh well if you woulda just SAID something..Oh excuse me, I'm sorry but I like ta give people credit for at least a rudimentary intellegence. Fuck me. I'm easy going but taking advantage has to have some..reciprocation. Oye, another fine mess. Gotta stop sabotaging myself, dignity will only get ya so far.

Splish Splash

It'd bin a long, hot, muggy weekend. Was feeling rather blah this evening and was annoyed that the kids seemed to be still out even though it was getting dark. To top it off it was starting to rain. I found them at the park squeeing(that a word?), splashing in puddles. There was a couple other kids there, there mothers chatting under a overhang protected by the rain. Didn't have the heart ta call them in but if they were to stay out I'd have ta watch them. I tried not ta think about the fact that at one time or other I'd fantasized about both the women there..I knew them both, they were talking very loudly about insensitive boyfriends, going to the club, lack of freedom, the usaul. I situated myself at a respectable distance because I couldn't get those damn fantasies outa my head and was feeling rather warm. Fortunately the kids saved me by surrounding me and playing paddycake on my bald spot. Was kinda nice being out in the rain, very cool.

Whahoo!

A WHOLE half day off! First I'm gonna Go buy some clothes then I'm gonna scoot ta A&P, then I'm gonna go for a tour and try and get some pics then..Zzzzzz.

I want it.

Not bloody likely, but it amuses me to fantasize.
10 things in no particular order.
1.A DSLR camera, with telephoto lense. Cause once in a while it'd be nice ta see a bird or animal and just snap a pic without going into "stalking"mode.
2.A pedal bike that weighs less then the motorized ones. Cause recreation doesn't have to be like work, effortless is good.
3.New pute. 1000$ would get me up ta date and sim drivin' and flying again.
4.A half dozen books by my fave authors: Really itchin ta read somthin.
5.3 bedroom, large yard, porch and a big tree for shade. hahahahah yeah right.
6.A complete set of pots and pans, mixing bowls and cooking utensils. Would be nice.
7. Dishwasher. Automatic, or child powered just as good.
8.A lover. Just sex, idle conversation, nothing complicated.
9.A vacation. A real one not just a period of time when I'm not working. Paris or Florence, maybe one of those place where the rain forest is, Brazil?
10.Hmm..Someplace ta swim that's handy. May be the only thing on this list that's doable.

Hot

It's a wee bit hot here, too hot to sleep. So a lil blah,blah,blah
Bought a ARC of a fave author on E-bay the other day, still waitin' for it though :(
Seemed ta have recovered from a severe case of the blues, took to much energy, seemed to fade as soon as I was caught up with the bills go figure.
Cleaning day tomorrow fun fun.

Not gonna, n-uh

..cause I'm a grown man, true, i'm a lil anxious for some grown-up conversation, but I've called, a few times. So..not gonna.
Self: You will.
N-uh, won't.